Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Lets talk about my bdae :D. A year ago, i still remembered, that i was promised a better bday the next birthday. Look at the state i'm in now. Don't come telling me things will be better or i'm still young to find someone else. Fuck you. I take relationships very seriously, i don't feel its some estascy for us to just feel loved. I don't give it up so easily. And i hate, waiting and waiting for my loved one, and they fucking screw me up. You know it feels like? Your doing it endlessly without noticing it at all. Your just like the previous one. Waste 3 years of my life, and just tear me apart. I'm not a 3 year old kid. If your going to tell me the truth then have courage and tell me. I hate people to give me lame excuses. Everything can be worked out. Its whether you want or not. If your going to chose my relationship as an excuse then your just wasting your time. Cause this relationship has never affected you. YOU KNOW THE TRUE REASON, your just using this as an excuse. You can decieve everyone but i know what the real problem in your studies. Maybe you don't know. Maybe you don't realise. I should have stopped you one year ago. I should have held on to you and not let you change. If you say you love me, are you really meaning it, or just lying through your teeth? So what if i die? I want to die on my own, if you love me, it would be my reason to live. I'm not saying that i would die over this relationship. Sometimes, maybe sometimes. Your just to mentally unstable to understand where your position is. Maybe if you sat down and really think it hard, look at the big picture. Your will understand what i'm implying. You will understand whats the problem thats seperating us, whats the problem thats causing you to lose concentration. I've never ever affected you negatively in your studies. I've never interfered it. Don't use this relationship as an excuse.
A Paradigm Occured at, 6:51:00 PM.
