Sunday, February 28, 2010
Fuck . My com seems to be re-formatted. Don't know what the fuck happen or who the fuck when to reformat it. Knn. Everythings not working out for me again. People i need go away, people i don't come and disturb me. Wtf. Can't just everything work properly? Why do people have to be so self-centered? Why can't people just hold on and be consistent about their compassion or feelings for each other? Why does eveyone have to be a fucking fucktard? Are people just plain dumb or are they just trying to be stupid?
People don't realise their mistakes before they do something to hurt one another. I'm sick of hearing i'm sorry. I don't want to hear them anymore cause they're useless. Why can't people just learn the meaning of IM SORRY and then use it? They're just wasting their time cause they are applying something in life that doesn't work for them anymore. This is fucked up man. Truly fucked up.
If we really care for one another, we shouldn't be treating each other well only when we need it. Or you think they need it. Cause EVERYONE needs it ALL the time. So use some common sense for you fucktards out there that if you want to care, CARE IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART. If not, don't just say a word and think that the other party would be a small kid that recieves a lollipop and FORGET everything. Cause when you make a commitment, you can never let go of it. And when a commitment is made to someone, that someone would be constantly expecting that commitment to be carried out. And not have to just pacify them for a day.
I'm so sorry for you readers out there that you all have to listen to all my crap and stuff. Cause i'm not in a good mood and things are fucking me up. If your close to me you would know whats going on. If not you can go ask around cause i don't feel like telling. Sorry for ranting so much about people today. If you felt uncomfortable reading this today, it means that your one of the culprits.
I'm in a turmoil of depression and happiness. Are you sure you would really take away my depression? Or just steal away my happiness.
People don't realise their mistakes before they do something to hurt one another. I'm sick of hearing i'm sorry. I don't want to hear them anymore cause they're useless. Why can't people just learn the meaning of IM SORRY and then use it? They're just wasting their time cause they are applying something in life that doesn't work for them anymore. This is fucked up man. Truly fucked up.
If we really care for one another, we shouldn't be treating each other well only when we need it. Or you think they need it. Cause EVERYONE needs it ALL the time. So use some common sense for you fucktards out there that if you want to care, CARE IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART. If not, don't just say a word and think that the other party would be a small kid that recieves a lollipop and FORGET everything. Cause when you make a commitment, you can never let go of it. And when a commitment is made to someone, that someone would be constantly expecting that commitment to be carried out. And not have to just pacify them for a day.
I'm so sorry for you readers out there that you all have to listen to all my crap and stuff. Cause i'm not in a good mood and things are fucking me up. If your close to me you would know whats going on. If not you can go ask around cause i don't feel like telling. Sorry for ranting so much about people today. If you felt uncomfortable reading this today, it means that your one of the culprits.
I'm in a turmoil of depression and happiness. Are you sure you would really take away my depression? Or just steal away my happiness.
A Paradigm Occured at, 10:53:00 AM.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Hey.. I came across something really interesting pointed out by my old friend :o 'Anthazagoraphobia'. The fear of being forgotten.. Interesting. Really depicts how I feel sometimes too! OH WELL! The world is just awesome =]
It's just a dystopic world.. Everythings upside down (:
It's just a dystopic world.. Everythings upside down (:
A Paradigm Occured at, 10:53:00 PM.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Ohkay i thought that it would be better if i brought some convience for you guys! :D
I can tell from your eyes
Those beautiful times
Were just a bunch of lies
Left alone, tucked aside
I was left to rot and die
You never gave a damn to me
So why are you crying back to me
I was lost, found, loved again
I picked up myself, thinking.
Woah-oh!
I just wanted to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me
Now that I've grown up strong
I can't be hurt anymore
Sleeping on my bed of needles
I feel no pain at all
You came back to me
With those sweet smiles
You tore me apart
And put me back again
I was lost, found, loved again
I picked up myseld, thinking.
Woah-oh!
I just want to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me
Hey you, YES YOU.
Leave me alone cause,
I've got nothing to say.
[SOLO]
I just wanted to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me..
So thats basically it! Tag your comments! :D
Just a teaser, I might do something like this....
I can tell from your eyes
Those beautiful times
Were just a bunch of lies
Left alone, tucked aside
I was left to rot and die
You never gave a damn to me
So why are you crying back to me
I was lost, found, loved again
I picked up myself, thinking.
Woah-oh!
I just wanted to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me
Now that I've grown up strong
I can't be hurt anymore
Sleeping on my bed of needles
I feel no pain at all
You came back to me
With those sweet smiles
You tore me apart
And put me back again
I was lost, found, loved again
I picked up myseld, thinking.
Woah-oh!
I just want to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me
Hey you, YES YOU.
Leave me alone cause,
I've got nothing to say.
[SOLO]
I just wanted to love
And to be loved
But facing this reality
Is facing hell to me..
So thats basically it! Tag your comments! :D
Just a teaser, I might do something like this....
A Paradigm Occured at, 6:53:00 PM.
Oh well.. As you can see, i'm alone, bored and sick again. =[ Sucks . Surprisingly, i always have this problem whenever shes not around.. How i wished things would be better.. I'm not the sort of person where talking is enough to pacify me. I want actions? With disappointments like these when you think everythings there a second ago and now everythings gone. LOL! Its a true dystopia. Yeap.
I'm not enjoying this anyway. My grandma is lying in the hospital. I feel tired of life. I feel so empty. I feel lonely. Sometimes i just dont understand why people can't just be less self-centered and put in a little effort to creating smiles for other peoples life?
I was talking to jh today after sch. And i was telling him about the cycle of love. Love is just like milk tea. [ I used milk tea cause i was drinking it.] Its really yummy drinking it, but after sometime, it becomes bitter if you drink too much. Or what others call ; Bitter-sweet love. Everyone has times where they have loved ones. Everyone wants to be loved. But the reason why people are breaking up although they feel so connected is most probably neither of them wants to put in some effort into working out a perfect relationship.
Hmmm.. If your wondering how i feel its suppose to work.. Then maybe i shall use the term of 'Work for reward, Reward for work.' Having love is not supposed to be depressing nor stressful. Its about having a great time together. Anyways, back to the work for reward, reward for work thingy. Well, For exmaple, The female says :' Today you go out shopping with me, i'll spend the next day with you.' Well.. Its more of a stereotype of comment. Cause sometimes others don't understand what i'm trying to say.
Basically. If you really want a relationship to work out, all you need to do is apply encouragement and concern together plus a little bit of flirting, and woah la! You've strike jackpot! =] I'm not saying that my relationship with sharlynn's awesome or whatsoever but i'm just thinking of what makes a couple really special is not about whether they match nor their body figure or personality. Everyone has their unique side of them. What really matters is happiness. If you don't even taste a slight bit of happiness within you two, you should really find another he/she.
So yea. I'm gonna make today lengthy so that i can entertain you bored readers cause i know the best way to entertain yourselves is by reading into peoples life and not DOTA :D Back to today..
So i talked to jh today about our songs and we decided that we should actually continue working on our previous songs. And not stop because of jason wanting to create another. If he really wants to personalise one of his own, there's no problem in it but the reason why we wanted to continue was because we put in quite a significant amount of time into the previous two songs. And of course, having 1 song alone its not gonna satisfy you guys out there! :D Also, i wanna see if you people would prefer my point of view in that song or jasons. =] Its gonna be fun but obviously, i hope we would be helping each other out :o
Just a little sneak peak of what me and jh would be doing, its acutally the lyrics i posted on FB under my notes. Go check it out and of course give it a little comment on what you all feel ohkay? :D I'm gonna try either make this song a acoustic song or a mixed. =] Meaning i might be singing :S But still i wanna try learn the skill of drumming and singing at the same time! ^^
So i'm not sure if you guys are excited but hey! Check it out! =] Also, i might not be posting the vid on FB if we successfully created it. Cause jh doesn't want to create any harrassment towards us =] Also, i also feel its not really the time as there would be bitches criticising it. We will see how :D So check it out and leave a comment! =]
BTW, If you read this post, please please PLEASE, TAG! If there are like less than 10 tags then i think i'll just either shut the blog down or just blog when i feel like it. Cause i dont wanna be putting so much effort into typing all these out and no one appreciates it. I'm sick of facing unappreciation. So yea. 10 people are not soooooo bad! =] I mean like, i can at least list out 10 friends that would tag :D
YEAP! YOU KNOW IT ITS YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,MAYBE YOU, OR YOU, HMM.. I THINKS ITS YOU TOO! HAHA! Have a nice tuesday~~~
P.S. No more basketball! :D
I'm not enjoying this anyway. My grandma is lying in the hospital. I feel tired of life. I feel so empty. I feel lonely. Sometimes i just dont understand why people can't just be less self-centered and put in a little effort to creating smiles for other peoples life?
I was talking to jh today after sch. And i was telling him about the cycle of love. Love is just like milk tea. [ I used milk tea cause i was drinking it.] Its really yummy drinking it, but after sometime, it becomes bitter if you drink too much. Or what others call ; Bitter-sweet love. Everyone has times where they have loved ones. Everyone wants to be loved. But the reason why people are breaking up although they feel so connected is most probably neither of them wants to put in some effort into working out a perfect relationship.
Hmmm.. If your wondering how i feel its suppose to work.. Then maybe i shall use the term of 'Work for reward, Reward for work.' Having love is not supposed to be depressing nor stressful. Its about having a great time together. Anyways, back to the work for reward, reward for work thingy. Well, For exmaple, The female says :' Today you go out shopping with me, i'll spend the next day with you.' Well.. Its more of a stereotype of comment. Cause sometimes others don't understand what i'm trying to say.
Basically. If you really want a relationship to work out, all you need to do is apply encouragement and concern together plus a little bit of flirting, and woah la! You've strike jackpot! =] I'm not saying that my relationship with sharlynn's awesome or whatsoever but i'm just thinking of what makes a couple really special is not about whether they match nor their body figure or personality. Everyone has their unique side of them. What really matters is happiness. If you don't even taste a slight bit of happiness within you two, you should really find another he/she.
So yea. I'm gonna make today lengthy so that i can entertain you bored readers cause i know the best way to entertain yourselves is by reading into peoples life and not DOTA :D Back to today..
So i talked to jh today about our songs and we decided that we should actually continue working on our previous songs. And not stop because of jason wanting to create another. If he really wants to personalise one of his own, there's no problem in it but the reason why we wanted to continue was because we put in quite a significant amount of time into the previous two songs. And of course, having 1 song alone its not gonna satisfy you guys out there! :D Also, i wanna see if you people would prefer my point of view in that song or jasons. =] Its gonna be fun but obviously, i hope we would be helping each other out :o
Just a little sneak peak of what me and jh would be doing, its acutally the lyrics i posted on FB under my notes. Go check it out and of course give it a little comment on what you all feel ohkay? :D I'm gonna try either make this song a acoustic song or a mixed. =] Meaning i might be singing :S But still i wanna try learn the skill of drumming and singing at the same time! ^^
So i'm not sure if you guys are excited but hey! Check it out! =] Also, i might not be posting the vid on FB if we successfully created it. Cause jh doesn't want to create any harrassment towards us =] Also, i also feel its not really the time as there would be bitches criticising it. We will see how :D So check it out and leave a comment! =]
BTW, If you read this post, please please PLEASE, TAG! If there are like less than 10 tags then i think i'll just either shut the blog down or just blog when i feel like it. Cause i dont wanna be putting so much effort into typing all these out and no one appreciates it. I'm sick of facing unappreciation. So yea. 10 people are not soooooo bad! =] I mean like, i can at least list out 10 friends that would tag :D
YEAP! YOU KNOW IT ITS YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,MAYBE YOU, OR YOU, HMM.. I THINKS ITS YOU TOO! HAHA! Have a nice tuesday~~~
P.S. No more basketball! :D
A Paradigm Occured at, 6:01:00 PM.
Friday, February 19, 2010
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm tasting starvation alr :D OMG soooo COOL!
Anyways. I'm really bored and sick :o Well. There's no one to talk to =[ Aww Come on! At least cure my boredness! I'm sure my friends can do that for me :D I can't believe i'm still optimistic about starving -_- Well. I'm sure many of you would be happy if i didn't interfere in your life. Maybe i should stop wasting the oxygen around us and food and electricity and paper and this and that and everything you can name of that i use/do/take/consume. Etc.
Maybe its time when i SHUTTHEFUCKUP and DIE ALREADY! You know like what all the people always troll to you about :D Maybe i should, Maybe i should.
Anyways. I'm really bored and sick :o Well. There's no one to talk to =[ Aww Come on! At least cure my boredness! I'm sure my friends can do that for me :D I can't believe i'm still optimistic about starving -_- Well. I'm sure many of you would be happy if i didn't interfere in your life. Maybe i should stop wasting the oxygen around us and food and electricity and paper and this and that and everything you can name of that i use/do/take/consume. Etc.
Maybe its time when i SHUTTHEFUCKUP and DIE ALREADY! You know like what all the people always troll to you about :D Maybe i should, Maybe i should.
A Paradigm Occured at, 6:59:00 PM.
Hmmm... I decided to blog :o
I've decided to do things differently nowadays. :D I'm gonna try starve myself to the limit for now :o maybe next time i'll do.... No sleep ^^ Gonna try methods of self-torture every 2weeks :x I know its might sound mad or sadistic but i kinda enjoy it actually. It distracts me from pain/devastation from relationships/friendships =] I guess its a better way to live. So dont bug me or anything. I'll stop when i want to or when i get something i want for that week :D
Anyways, hows life to everybody? :o I wanna go to sentosa but there's no one to go with me and i don't think i really have the time either. I wasted my cny by playing com everyday. CAUSE NO FUCKING IDIOTS WOULD WANNA GO OUT WITH ME. Yea. Sometimes i realise i cannot depend on the closest people around me. I should really start digging up my long lost friends and catch up with them :D Or maybe find more friends to go out with than rather stay at home whenever plans are ruined or i have nothing to do.
Ohkay i gonna stop cause i just remembered that it takes at least 2 weeks for people to update themselves from my blog :P so i'm lazy to explain in detail. Maybe i'll re-live my blog if i see the need to. Or when there's some motivation :D Your ignorance makes me de-motivated D:
P.S. Everything needs motivation. No motivation = no life. Dont whine, your useless.
I've decided to do things differently nowadays. :D I'm gonna try starve myself to the limit for now :o maybe next time i'll do.... No sleep ^^ Gonna try methods of self-torture every 2weeks :x I know its might sound mad or sadistic but i kinda enjoy it actually. It distracts me from pain/devastation from relationships/friendships =] I guess its a better way to live. So dont bug me or anything. I'll stop when i want to or when i get something i want for that week :D
Anyways, hows life to everybody? :o I wanna go to sentosa but there's no one to go with me and i don't think i really have the time either. I wasted my cny by playing com everyday. CAUSE NO FUCKING IDIOTS WOULD WANNA GO OUT WITH ME. Yea. Sometimes i realise i cannot depend on the closest people around me. I should really start digging up my long lost friends and catch up with them :D Or maybe find more friends to go out with than rather stay at home whenever plans are ruined or i have nothing to do.
Ohkay i gonna stop cause i just remembered that it takes at least 2 weeks for people to update themselves from my blog :P so i'm lazy to explain in detail. Maybe i'll re-live my blog if i see the need to. Or when there's some motivation :D Your ignorance makes me de-motivated D:
P.S. Everything needs motivation. No motivation = no life. Dont whine, your useless.
A Paradigm Occured at, 1:37:00 PM.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Sometimes I wonder if you have cared about how i feel.
A Paradigm Occured at, 11:52:00 PM.
